This week I listened to both audios
(Loving Kindness and Subtle Mind) several times. The Subtle Mind audio seemingly put me in a
trance to where I was aware of everything around me, but in a dream state which
was wonderful every time until it ended and it seemed like I was being ripped
out of a dream. However, the Loving Kindness
audio continues to perplex me. I relax
and let the audio be my guide, but I feel as though my emotions are behind a
blast door which simply will not open.
Though I do have people in my life I love dearly, I simply cant seem to
connect with what the audio is directing.
In the past couple of weeks I have suffered from massive physical
ailments. To tell the truth, just the
ideas this course was proposing caused me to regress into a proverbial cave, afraid
to what doors may open if I implemented the ideas proposed. However, I have come to terms with my fears
and my physical ailments are subsiding as tread closer and closer to fully
acclimating myself to concepts of spiritual, mental and physical wellness.
Truthfully,
I am not sure if I am doing this blog right because everytime I post on other
blogs, it does not seem to show up. So,
if I blog on your page, please let me know to be sure I am not screwing
anything up. Thank you for reading. Cheers!
Aaron
I can relate to what you posted about fearing what might come of participating in these exercises. I know that they will benefit me, but sometimes I feel like I don’t have time to focus on them fully; afraid of what I might discover about myself. Almost like I’m in too big of a rush to be interrupted with emotion or insight- but then I realize the importance and that it truly is ‘now or never’ for some things. Now is the time to work on my healing and growth, and I’m taking advantage of these opportunities to grow. Great post!
ReplyDeleteAaron,
ReplyDeleteYou are not alone in trying to achieve what the instructions are trying to get us to achieve. I believe that as beginners, we should accept the fact that we are just new into this thing and get along with it as slowly as we can. Am sorry that your massive ailments have held you back but I am hopeful that as you try to get into the exercises, you will be able to get some level of relaxation as well as being able to get some form of integral health. All the best
David